Lately I've been trying to think of what I can do for God in a christian school where everyone seems to have their lives together. I mean, yes you can encourage those around you but it's very difficult to know who's real and who's not. I started looking at my own life, am I real? Do I always think of what God wants me to do? Or am I more interested in what I want to do, where I want to go in life. I've started to realize that I should be setting an example for others, I tend to think that it doesnt matter what I do because it's just a small thing, not really bad but at the same time not really good either. Am I willing to give something up for God? Do people look at me and say is she real?
I've also started observing the people I hang out with, are they real Christians? Are they uplifting? Am I more tempted to do wrong when I'm around them? The problem is that I love them, theres no way I'm goign to leave my friends, but at the same time I've made a choice not to go along with them when I know it's not right, I'm goign to make a stand no matter what they think of me when I do. I must admit I was dissapointed when I realized how many times I'd compromised, so many times I could ahve led them to Christ, but didnt. But ya know what? I cant change the past, but I can change my future. I WILL change my future.
