Well I just got back from Christmas break, it was really nice seeing my family. I also had the chance to see alot of my old friends....I must say I was rather shocked. I was invited to someones house for a family get together with all of my church family. Well...I guess that was code for adults downstairs teens upstairs. I was sent upstairs and WOW! It was pretty scarring. I walk in and theres my friends! With purple hair and multiple piercings. Wasn't expecting that! Or the jokes they were telling, music they were playing, or things they were talking about. Lets just say I was pretty uncomfortable!

When your at a place like Fountainview you kinda forget about the real world and the dangers in it. It's like...you walk into a store and are taken back at the fact that their playing "unaproved" music, then you remember where you are. I wasn't prepared to deal with the situations I faced that day.
I wasn't sure whether I should walk out or just shut up and deal with it, or say something to them. I really didn't want to stay, there's 2 things you should know about me. I hate vulgarity and I hate conflict. and either choice I made I would have to either listen to their jokes and language, or stand up tot hem. Or I could do the easy thing and just walk out. And I gotta say, I REALLY wanted to just get out of there! But what would that help? Sure it would help me, but would it leave an impact on them Nope. I dont really care what people think about me, but however I do care what they think about my religion and lifestyle. Because that means that if they think bad, that's my fault. I didn't do my job as a christian. So now you see my dilemma!

As much as I hate to say it, I just walked out. But after I walked out I knew I shouldn't have, I should have stood up and said something. So I walked back in, and I did. I didn't stand up and rebuke them. But I talked to one girl, I talked to her for a long time. She didnt like where she was at, she wanted to change, but she didn't want to be rejected by her "friends" or her boyfriend. This girl is 13. Her boyfriend? 12.

I feel like I need to do SOMETHING! But in order to do anything I need to pop my bubble, get out of my comfort zone and get out there and do something. Nothing felt worse then the realization that I had let God down.